Reedeeming the dream

Had so utterly lost hope in the sunsets of Dehradune....
Suddenly getting back to order
Am listeningto Silk Route today
Like long back when I would look at the day in the various tones of sunset fallin on my table
Natalie goldberg, Ruskin Bond, Dalai Lama were the distant lights filling me with hope
Those days I had just one vocation, dream dream dream
And then the this real life,
Where cynicism took away the lights out of Dehra
So I thot it wouldnt matter any longer
But I guess...Dehra shall remain
With the promise of sunsets and Darjling tea
My garden smelling of summer
Marigolds,Pansies,and lots of Sweet peas
Bookshelves lined up, smelling of Old books
Statues of Buddha in my garden
Hanuman Chatti, Neem Krori baba,Dehra bazar
Swaying Deodars, Oaks,and Poison Ivys on the wall
Some ghosts in the neighbourhood
Old friends and some old songs.
Thats my dream that hasnt died
Should I thank somebody?
Maybe I should!

bhains ki aankh

Singin throughout the day

Ye zalim duniya

tujhe jeene nahi degi....

marne bhi nahi degi.........!

There are times when I dont even have enough patience to look at the world straight in the eye...

I resort to looking at it through some appendage (specs, cameras,telescopes!!!) so that it can be made to confirm to some sense!

Got myself a very very foolish display on orkut....the picture is so sweet that I wud almost puke looking at it! Thats not my disposition on most days!!!

I look hard at the world trying to find some semblence of order or design.....must say what I seeeeeeeeeee is not too good....so little truth...so little of the harsh truth that makes life worth living..we are all on such 'sweeten the world drive'.....everything is sweet....so sweet that its killing me! gall and venom in my guts!!!

Two eyes looking at the world.....

No short circuit between my ears......

DUNIYA BHAINS KI AANKH...phoooooooooooooohhh

whats in the name?

Naam ghum jayega
Remembered Syed Mirzas lecture on how filmakers should have big names so that they realise the importance of their selves and come up with work which is worth it .He said when you say you are a filmaker...you are makin a BIG statement...you are sayin I am a showman!! I show the world how to dream....I am responsible for whatever people do in my name...imagine working with that kind of responsibility and ego and then you realise why are emotional lives of such filmakers so lopsided...here work is all those dreams that love could never be....coz love never is that real...you never have so much of control on how things turn out in love....when you make a film its almost an extension of what you are....you are present in essence there with your film....whether its about your mother...or about some weird tornado that tore off your town from the face of the world..."YOU" and whatever you have learned and made out life...
oh I love my name!!!!!!

WHY I DONT MIND BEING LABELED AS A FEMINIST!

It hurts when
What we look like is more important than what we are doing
if we get raped its our fault
if we get bashed we must have provoked it
if we raise our voices we are nagging bitches
if we enjoy sex we are nymphos
if we don’t we are frigid
if we love women its because we cant get a real man
if we want to get married we are out to trap a man
if we don’t, we are unnatural
if we stand up for our rights we are aggressive and “unfeminine”
if we don’t we are typical weak females!!!!!!!!
its been a madd madd world so far...and i dont mind drawing out my dagger and shouting I OBJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!