May 29, 2007

Fences




Went back to my old school after decades,remembered each and every detail.
The gate,the classrooms,the toilets,the mango trees...each and evrery brick!..
could have walked blind folded in that one place in the world.
Strange considering i have lost the hope of feelin at home ever...nywhere in the world..gypsy that I have becum.

Touching ones first memories again?
Every memory as fresh as if it happened today...Riding my bicycle in the compound of the school,looking stealthily across the queque for that one face...the peaceful faces of nuns who would look at you most impersonaly as if one were some strange species without any previous family history!
The humilation of wetting ones clothes in front of the whole class...
The mocking face of ayah whispering.."Is that what you are taught at home!"
Its amazing how the geography of that one building has been indented in my
Those red and yellow walls just refuse to fade away..........
something about them....that doesnt go away
something solid that they have left inside me...
I am glad...I still have the power to remember!

May 18, 2007

the colour purple


The color purple
indifference... distance...travel..loneliness...pride
purple..the colour of standing tall
the colour...my mother never wore
the colour...i grew in my veins slowly...painfully
the colour of my bald head
the colour of frozen gazes
the colour of no comfort
the colour of stubborn shamelesness
the colur of unapolgetic desires
the colour of angry prayers
the colour of prayers withdrawn
the colour purple of angry questions
the colour purple!

May 13, 2007

fly fly fly away........



When started writing I promised one thing to myself....
That I would never let myself get obsessed wid 'something' or rather somebody!
I wouldnt linger and waste my life on things which were not working out........
In my language I promised myself that I would never 'marry the fly'
even though I would give myself the freedom to admire the fly,
but only afteri had looked atthe other so called more important things like 'career', 'goals' ,'sensible choices','bring wise'and other such things
but now as time flies away..and I have all the other important things that I acquired by ignoring the fly

I think I miss the fly

THE FLY I NEVER MARRIED!
I wait for another flight now
I wish I could fly away..................

Mad woman


Am I mad because I dont fit in the plastic labels?
Am I mad if I cant help being young?
Am I mad if dont care about what tomorrow brings?
Am I mad if I am not scared of growing old?
AM I mad if I dont care a damn about how I look?
Am I mad if I dont belong to any place?
Am I mad if I tell you the truth about my life all the time?
Am I mad if I dont care a dime about editing my language?
Am I mad if I swear and shout?
Am I mad if I laugh out loud?
YES I AM MAD!!!
THANKS BUT NO THANKS!

May 6, 2007

ASSUME NOTHING!


YOU THINK I AM THAT!
like that?
really????
what makes you think like that?
what makes you so sure?
did i ever say that?
well i could have been kidding?
or who knows??? maybe evn i dont know...
just that I dont understand "this" in you ..
which makes you so sure about life...
should i call it arrogance?
or have you lived a long tiring life?
which has jaded you!
alas my friend ...no excuse is good enough!
all i have to say to you....
ASSUME NOTHING :)