Mar 15, 2008

becoming somebody....

"Mr Darcy shall we dance?":)

Mar 11, 2008

Wanting wanting wanting more!

What would I give to
1. Be near my own books that are lying at 10 thousand diffrent places.
2. Smell the sweet peas.
3. Go back to my village in the terai and smell the cottonsilks there.
4. Tell my Mom and Dad that I am doing well in life and they dont need to worry.
5. Go to Lucknow and stay with an old friend and tell her the every damn thing That I have missed out on telling her.
6. Hold your hand and sing with you ...there is no hurry in life...i am ok and I am doing well.

Flying....


It feels damn scary...there are knots in my stomach...I feel weak. I dont know what should I shove down my throat to shut up these crazy sounds from my gut.
Too much is happeneing...I dont know if I can take it..but I want to take it all in.I am in the air and i may die for all i know...
too much is happening...every cell inside me is charged sending loaded signals to my brain!my brain is wearing out.i am gonna give up..any moment...i may make the wrong move any time and come crashing down!
but what am i saying? i am flying bcoz because thats what i wanted to do all my life...i cant be bad at flying...ive practised it in my head all my life!
but what did i do to deserve it to get it now at this moment?
but lemme just fly!
shut up and fly
when youre flying dont talk just fly
dont think just fly!